Wow. So this is what they call the waiting game. I have sent in applications to Georgetown and the University of Maryland at College Park, and I won't hear back until December 15 and sometime in January, respectively. As I sit and work on homework instead of applications, I wonder, "Will I get into my dream school of Georgetown? Did I present myself well? What if I don't get into Georgetown and College Park, the school I depend on getting into no matter what? Then where will I go?"

These questions are quite infuriating. I keep telling myself to think positively and to just concentrate on my studies. The only bright thing that has happened in my life so far is that I have gotten my Learner's Permit. That should keep my mind occupied only for so long though, because the questions of my admission linger in my head.

I truly have done everything I could for Georgetown. I applied early; I have a solid resume; I have an apparent increase in my academic rigor and success (I achieved straight A's finally at the end of my junior year, and have started this year with the same grades); I tried my best at my interview; and I was able to receive a recommendation letter from an alumni. But is it really enough?

I look at a lot of my friends who are applying to Georgetown. They all seem so talented. They play varsity sports, act in school plays, and serve as leaders in the Student Government Association. I don't have any of those honors that I have always wanted to achieve. What is my chance of going to that dream school? I don't know, and that is what I am scared of.

My parents are not helping. They talk about moving closer to Georgetown even though I haven't been admitted into the university. Do they just not want to accept that I might not be admitted or do they truly believe that I am such a great student that I will certainly be admitted? I don't know that either.

I do not want my Winter Break to be filled with three research papers, two major projects, 3 units of AP Biology, AND last-minute applications. I don't want my Thanksgiving vacation, which was spent completing applications, to have been for nothing. Hopefully, though, it will not be necessary to fill out this next round of applications.